a blank  page in front of my eyes,

I send you my words even if they will not be read, but first of all I want to show some love for my white paper wich I always find by my side…

It tears me up inside I didn’t want to say this, but It’s true. I wish that I could take it back and fix it all instead of ruining our lives and breaking each other heart . I cannot afford to lose someone like you and I can never intend to hurt the most beautiful soul in this universe that I loved from the deepest of my heart. Unfortunately, I lost my self in all those fights I lost my sense of wrong and right. You are the reason why I became like this and in the other side you taught me how to be tough , You taught me how to be strong but I can’t do it now , I’m tired of crying I am tired of being tired and my tears are running down like razorblades and I’m trying to hold them I’m trying … but you already know that I can't !